Its been a very long day today. We started Lilly's third cycle of chemo. we were at clinic from 9 am to 530 pm. Its very hard to be there sometimes. It hits me so hard every time I walk in that building.  Its easy to pretend everything is fine until you're confronted with it at the hospital and it becomes a reality again. I cried a lot today. And on top of everything else my iphone 4 fell and hit Lilly's infusion pump stand and the screen completely shattered.  At least we got to come home tonight and didn't have to stay overnight at the hospital. She goes back in the morning for more and then again on Friday as well. I have to work tomorrow so that will not be easy. But then I am off until Monday and hopefully can enjoy christmas with my family.